Wifey Diaries

I. Love. My. Husband. Like, a lot. With our anniversary coming up I've been reminiscing and thinking about lots of things. Chris started selling home security systems over the summers the year we first met and has been doing it ever since. So, through our almost three years of marriage we have moved and been apart a ton, which always causes plenty of negative comments to arise from friends, family, or anyone learning of our situation. I have heard variations of: "that's no good for a family", "that sucks" and, (of course), "that must be SO hard!". But (I'm assuming) they are only saying how hard it must be for ME.. because I have the kids. What most people don't think about is how hard it must be for Chris. He has to be away from home all alone. He doesn't get to see his kids every day, or get annoyed by their shrieks and messes, or laugh as they dance and act like animals. He loves loves loves his babies, and me. He doesn't want to leave us for weeks at a time, and when we can stay together, we do. We are doing what is necessary to provide for our family in the best way we possibly can RIGHT NOW.
Last year was a really hard year for me. I hated Chris' job because I really needed him home, but I soon realized that we wouldn't even have a home for our family had he not taken his opportunities to leave for work. A few months ago I read an article I had stumbled upon through Pinterest. Why I won't bash my husband. (Read it, seriously) It made me realize that I was complaining way more than necessary, and I stopped immediately. Being apart for any amount of time is hard, but our marriage is stronger than I ever knew it could be. Chris is my best friend. He is amazing. He is unafraid of buying  feminine hygiene products, he knows when I need a soda/energy drink to keep my sanity, and he makes me laugh more than any one else. Being apart does suck, but it's just a bump in the road on this crazy life ride.
So, please. If you don't have something POSITIVE to say, don't say anything at all. Because I may punch you in the head.

Time To Start Anew

It's been a while since I have posted and I don't feel up to delving into the details of the last year+. So, quick recap: Sutton was born 3 weeks early and immediately showed her attention-demanding nature.. we love her to pieces. She is now 10.5 months old and crazy as ever. Everett is 2! He has a billion words (English), he is learning to potty in the toilet (I will post on that as he progresses), and he is a pretty awesome boy (pure boy, no doubt). We have a dog, Cooper. He is a mix of who knows how many dogs, he's definitely not the Australian Cattle Dog we thought we were adopting! But we love him all the same. Chris and I drove out to Louisiana mid April for him to start working, and in early June the kids and I came back to AZ to visit with my little sisters new sweetest baby girl. We are hoping to be reunited SOON, the sooner the better for my sanity's sake! That's the gist of our lives the past year-ish.

Now, the past few weeks have been rough emotionally for me. I've made a lot of changes that have brought Chris and me to such an awesome point in our marriage. However, I've grown apart from a few friends I used to be very close with. I know that this happens as people "grow up", but I truly never would have expected it to happen with the friendships it did. I have felt a million sad and negative feelings, both in my own mind and projected towards me. I felt so betrayed, lonely, and heartbroken! I got to the point where I would check my Instagram religiously, just waiting to see if these "friends" posted pictures of how great their lives were with each other... without me.. (At that point I seriously don't know what I would have done without Chris, a million brownie points to him for listening to me cry and never making me feel silly.)

So, I've taken a little leave of absence from Instagram. But, I'm really wondering if it's normal to lose such good friends? Or did I happen to just befriend people that secretly hated me and were using me to meet one another and run off into the sunset without me??? That's probably it... sounds legit... Well. I will save my choice words and carry on. Instead of moping, because I'm DONE with that, I am going to cross off the million and one things I've been wanting to do. Crocheting, baking, freezer meals, and LOTS of Pinterest crafts. And to anyone reading this with crappy friend choice and nothing to do, join me!


Hannah





P.S. No one should have to choose between good friendships and a good marriage, but given the resulting situations.. I am extremely happy with my choices. My hubs is #1.